I (a spoken word poem)

I
I wonder how you see me
I think about it all the time
I think about me
in your eyes
I think about me in my mind
I think about me too much.
I 
I,
I think about the fact that I think about the fact that 
I think about myself too much, too much.
I
would like to see You more.

can I 
die to the I
lift my eyes
not a gaze cast downwards
but up to the highest places
where You sit, seat above all things

me, above me
You are.