I really really wanted to write something today. I really really wanted to take self portraits. To be creative; to feel like myself. I keep going in and out of these waves of feeling alive and not feeling connected to that part of myself at all. This is brutally honest. It’s been one of those days where I don’t feel like myself.

I haven’t written a song in a month. It feels like a million years. Not having songs fill my heart makes me feel even more disconnected. Floating, failing, lost. So I played back some of the songs I have written and this one that I am sharing is one I feel strongly tonight—and often. Which is of course, why it was written in the first place.

My fingers are tripping over themselves on the Ukelele and this demo is far from perfect. But it is the perfect description of my cloudy brain and if I could share anything today—as I so wish—I can’t think of anything better than this. My favorite lines are the resolution at the end; for those who listen all the way through, let us know we’re not alone and join—or start—the conversation below. I thank God for music and for prayer, as they often are the only things that ground me. With all my love, Rena.